It is with a variety of emotions that I return to blogging. It has been just over two years since I last posted on this site. An astute observer will notice there were zero posts in 2014 and only two in 2015. As December of 2013 drew to a close, I had no idea of the journey that our family was about to embark on nor the impact that it would have on each of us.
In sum, during 2014 we adopted internationally, I took a promotion with the company I was working for and we moved halfway across the country. Three major life events in three months. Not a good idea. Under normal circumstances, facing change this enormous would be daunting. We soon found, however, that our whole family dynamic was undergoing a dramatic and unexpected shift. Add to that the need for me to travel out of state followed by the sale of the company to private equity and a consequent continual increase in pressure, shifting expectations and non-stop change.
Finally, I just walked. The best thing for me and for my family was to move on. And so I did.
All in all, the past 3 ½ years have been more difficult than I could have imagined. All the hopes, dreams and expectations that we held in December of 2013 came crashing to earth. From castles in the sky to rubble and refuse amidst a pit of despair.
But from the ashes of despair, hope rises. From a faith that has been crushed and broken, new seeds begin to sprout. A worldview shattered, a new one emerging. A past paradigm once accepted, now discarded.
Pilgrim in progress, Paradigm in process. The journey moves on.